- I wish I had the energy to clean, work on projects, cook up a storm, then be rested after 4 hours of sleep, like Martha.
- I wish I were more feminine like the gal who runs BrocanteHome. I want to decorate my house with antiques and special finds, just like she does. I want to have tea in the afternoon with a bit of cake.
- I wish I were well-read. I wish I had a high metabolism. I wish I had a house with a yard and a garden where I managed not to kill every single thing I planted.
That can be hard.
I don't think I will ever be really excited to clean the kitchen floor or to wash the dinner dishes. I need to learn to not expect it of myself either. Rather, I'd like to develop the discipline to do these things, albeit grudgingly, and just move on.
I don't have to be anyone but myself. I have to learn to be okay with that. I need to learn more about authenticity. To no longer say, "If I was just like her".
I am just as I should be. I am going to learn to embrace that.